i'm 21! yeayyy!

but to be honest, it feels strangely normal. like it's just another birthday. just another year older. just this time, it gets slightly depressing/unnerving cos at 21, i realy have to get stuff sorted out. been pushing it for waay too long. now, i have to really think of what i want to do with my life.

and be realistic about it. no more excuses. no more "i dunno"s. no more ignorance. bye bye oblivion.

it's starting to suck alredi. but i'm not feeling bad about it right now. i feel.. hollow. it's like nothing's connected. my brain and my heart are not working together at the moment. it's a.. strange (for lack of a better word) feeling.

i finally opened all my presents! yeayy! the presents i got from the party. so funnn!

and i'm looking forward to the xmas dinner later on at my aunt's. wheeee!~ i hope it's truly traditional. i wanna see what it's like. hehe.. but then fara just told me that my grans is bringing epok-epok, soup & sambal tumis so i guess it's not truly traditional after all. hahaha.. nvm. a mix of culture is all the more fun!

merry christmas to all who are celebrating!

results will be out tomorrow. wow. thanks.